Boy how things have changed in the past year.
A little more than a year ago I moved across the country to a place I had never been. It was so different from what I was used to, and it had my great disapproval. The heat was unbearable, hotter than I had ever felt, and there was not a rain drop in sight. Or cloud, for that matter. For so long I loathed this land I was forced to live upon. I knew no one. I had left all my friends where I loved most, and I hated every second without them. I was so set on locking myself in my room, and not allowing anyone in that I came to know the real me.
My relationship with God at times was even feeling dead. For a while, I didn't know what to believe in. I began to question everything about God and, about everything I had ever known. To this day I still do(though I know God is the only one out there that truly matters). I had no care about myself, or my God. I cried out to him so many times. I just wanted to know "Why?". During that same time, a little bit after, my relationship with God was overpowering, and it was stronger than it had ever been before. It was then did I only start to begin accepting my place here.
The summer was over. Enough lazing around doing nothing. I had to start school. It was one of the most frustrating school years I had ever experienced. Because I was so out of the routine at home, I couldn't focus and I didn't like it.
In August of 2009, I became a part of something that has deeply changed my life, I met friends and joined the drama program of MoezArt.
I was so used to hanging out with adults, my parents or my siblings the whole summer, I had forgotten what it was like to interact with people my own age. Finding the first couple of classes really pushing myself to just walk in the door without my mom, was a struggle. My very first drama audition was tortuous. I had to, not only talk in front of people I had never seen nor met before, but I had to perform of the top of my head for them. You could say I was a little bit out of my comfort zone. As the weeks went on I started making a few friends. After that first semester, I had a different outlook on life. Though, I only made a few friends, I had no idea what was in store for me in 2010.
In January of 2010, I auditioned for a part in an up coming play of MoezArt. Never really thinking I would EVER get this part, I still practiced every single day as best as I could. I had to audition for it early because I would be away on a missions trip for the real audition times. The night I went, I blew the judges away. I myself, was even surprised with my singing. Never before then had I ever sung so hard, and so strong in my life. They had me sing the same song three more times. I was stunned by the judge's reactions.
The day after my pre-audition, I left for El Salvador. What an amazing experience that was to be a part of. I was able to see some of my old friends whom I had not seen for a year. One, I was especially glad to see because we had became great friends over the course of my time at my new "home". We all share such great times together, learning of God's love, and working to help others through that. It was a week I will never forget, and one I will cherish forever...
A while after I got back from my incredible trip to El Salvador, it was time to find out the shock of my whole acting career. Of course, on the day all the results came out, I didn't receive that very important e-mail. I actually found out on Facebook from a friend. I literally couldn't believe I got the part I wanted. My dream about having this very part, had come true. It totally blew my mind. I was shocked. Then after the first day of rehearsals, I was told that about 8 other girls had tried out for this part which I had been bestowed upon. One of which, and an unbelievable audition. Hearing all this, caused me to become EXTREMELY nervous. I was so afraid everyone would think I totally suck...and I wouldn't be what people had expected of me to be. I began to ask why I was given this part over anyone else? What was so special about my less than perfect audition? I still wonder that today.
Anyways. I don't know if it was because I was given this main part. Or if it was because people had truly seen the real me come out. But I made a lot of new friends that very semester. Right now, I don't really care if it was only because my part they talked to me. Because, I became friends with them anyways! :)
God definitely stuck those people in my life at the perfect time, and I now have some GREAT, INCREDIBLY, AMAZING friendships, that I KNOW will last a life time. Over the summer I hung out with some people. And now, I don't know how I ever lived without them. I talk to some of them every single day. I find it difficult not talking to them for less the half the day even. They raise up my spirits, and have brought the life into me that once was lost. They also, have allowed me to have a closer relationship with God, and know what a true friendship is like.
After living in this land where I once was lost and forgotten, I can now say I am indescribably thankful in so many ways, that God has plopped me here. For being here almost a year and a half, I can surely say this year has been one of the best of my entire life. Thank you to all of my friends, who have befriended me. You will never possibly know how much you have made a difference in my life, or how much I really care about you! THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU ALL.
And...that's how time has flown by. I can not believe all this has happened, in such a short amount of time. But I am certainly more than glad it has. :)
